College athletes across the United States are left to pick up the pieces of what was their senior season. Their last chance to lace up in their university colors and represent the school they have spent the last few years working their asses off for. I’m one of those students. To be completely honest, I’m shaken to the core about everything that is going on. This global epidemic isn’t supposed to affect me, right? Aren’t college athletes supposed to be untouchable? Today, we learned we aren’t.
Now we’re all left to wonder what could’ve been. Could the number one seed have won the national wrestling title? Could the 12 upset the 5 like in all other March Madness’s? Would the backup pitcher reignite the losing team in the bottom of the 6th and lead them to their first conference title? We’ll never know. For me, that’s the toughest part. Never knowing.
I recently got asked by someone if I was mad, sad, or pissed about the potential of my senior season being canceled. I waited a few moments before responding because, in that moment, I couldn’t narrow it down to one of the three. I felt all of these emotions, but for different reasons. The only thing that I knew that I wanted was to cry. I had all these emotions built up, and they had one thing in common: crying. Boy, did I let the water gates open.
I realized that this was more than one spring tournament or season. This was the  culmination of years of hard work. Though, it’s different than what many would think. I instantly went back to when I was a teenager and grinding my ass off in the pouring rain or using the lights of my golf cart as a guide to play once the sun went down. It was the relentless work ethic that I instilled as a way to hold myself accountable. I’m not sitting here upset for the senior who is losing out on her senior season. I’m sitting here for the 15-year-old who came early, stayed late, and worked like there was no tomorrow.
I was working for the kid who spent the evenings grinding over one last drill even when no one was watching. We work so hard to get recruited by our dream college and sign there our senior year of high school. That’s where my mind went next. Remembering that all the hard work was worth it, up until that point. Knowing I had four more years to prove myself and leave everything out there when it was all said and done.
Now, I’m there. I’m at my dream school. Only, I had my last tournament/game. It was weeks and months ago. For athletes in the fall sports, they knew when their last game was. Whether it was at the end of the regular season, a win or be done situation, they knew the importance. Sure, we all suit up, in what could be our last game, hoping we could get just one more. It’s in the back of every athletes’ mind so don’t try to say it isn’t. Only, mine was six months ago. The thought of that tournament being my last of my college career, you couldn’t pay me enough money to even consider that.
Yet, here I am. Praying to God, that six months ago wasn’t my last game and this is all a dream. Only, I know it’s not. I’m left to consider if I left it all out there. I didn’t. I took it all for granted. I know I’m not the only one. We’re all taught to leave it all on the field in case it is our last game or tournament, but do we really?
It breaks my heart to even read the tweets, Facebook posts, Instagram stories of everyone who has lost out on the final game before knowing it was their last. I’m not saying that the cure is to give each and every one of us one more season. To those who have one or more seasons, games, tournaments, meets ahead of them, please recognize the privilege you are given. Don’t give it your all for only you and your team, give it your all for every college athlete who didn’t get the chance.
We’re all taught to think about the 6-year-old in the stands who hopes to be you one day. Next year, think about last year’s graduated senior who wasn’t even given that chance. Sports are bigger than you or your school. They unite people who otherwise would have never met. Do your part and be able to look yourself in the mirror and know you left it all out there.
To the college athletes who lost out on their last game or season, know that it was all worth it. Know the hours you put in starting as a kid and ending as a college athlete were worth it. It’s a hard pill to swallow I know. Like most things, with time, it will get easier. Learn to appreciate all the minutes, hours, days, months and years you got to perfect your craft. We’re lucky, even though it doesn’t seem like it right now.